I sent an email to Dr. Erin through Psychology Today. I asked if I'd be able to see her outpatient. I don't think I can because I saw her inpatient. We'll see.
I told her about the self-injurous behavior I've been involved in for two months. I can't identify the source. Maybe it's the book I'm writing?
Speaking of which, I'm writing about the grade school years. I'm up to grade two which is when I had a significant loss. At seven years old I was already becoming closed off. I know this will be hard to write about.
In third grade I developed a second personality named Erik. That's when the physical abuse started. That's when I have concrete memories of sexual abuse. I started learning how to drive. I became tough on the inside, hid my emotions, felt lots of anger and fear and kept to myself. It was during this time I started babysitting my sisters. No wonder it's going to be hard to write.
No more procrastination.
Amy
