Still haven't self-injured since August 2nd. I got on the scale and gained 10 pounds. I talked with Faith about it. She gave me a packet of worksheets to track some of the eating and the reasons and the moods and stuff like that. I used it today. It kept me on track most of the day.
But then I thought, "What if I didn't have the worksheet? What if Faith weren't here? What would I do?" I certainly cannot be dependent on people. I cannot be dependent on a certain formula. I need to take what I'm learning, absorb it thoroughly then integrate it into the rest of my recovery.
From addiction to addiction. I don't want my life to be this way.
Here's the next book I'll be reading. Recommended by my therapist.
CLICK HERE TO SEE "THE RULES OF HEALTHY EATING," BY KAREN KOENIG
"In this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. These have come so that your faith, of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire, may be proved genuine and may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed." (1 Pet 1:6-7 NIV)
About This Blog
My blog shares my recovery journey from childhood abuse to living with mental illness. I've been involved in twelve step groups and therapy since 1982. I accepted Jesus as my Savior in 1988. To the best of my ability, I have followed where He wants me to go and what He wants me to do. Maybe you'll find the hope and strength you need through what I write. Maybe you want to stop hurting yourself. Maybe you have a friend who needs help and can benefit from my story. I was newly disabled when I asked God this question: "What do you want me to do with my life?" I closed my eyes and paused for a few moments to still my mind. This is what I sensed from Him: "Amy, I want you to write your story to bring hope and healing to those who are still suffering." And that's exactly what I am doing!