I'm feeling empty and a little depressed. I want to disappear, hide and not be able to be found. Not sure where this is coming from. I'm willing to take a guess.
My mom joined me in my therapy session last week. I wanted her to so she could meet my therapist and get an update about the self-injury. I'm very glad she came. I might be having some delayed feelings.
It was one of the best sessions I've had. My mom always provides insight into stuff I can't remember For example, what was the sexual abuse trauma that happened to me between the ages of 4-6? Now I know.
My therapist shared what we were working on. It was interesting to hear her talk about me and likewise to hear my mom talk about me. There was a tender moment with my mom where she cried a little bit. I'm so proud to have her for my mom.
It felt like a dump truck had been emptied. I was a little shell shocked when we were done. I guess I haven't sat with it until now.
Anyway, it was good overall. I'm going to rest today. Way too hot and laying down hugging my pillow decreases the stress and increases comfort.
