The battles I justify fighting are the ones that pull me away from healthy behavior. When they have a grip, I have to suit up with my weapons of mass destruction. My battles include:
- Drinking alcohol to soothe emotional pain
- Puts me to sleep so I don't feel anything
- Relaxes me in social environments
- Overeating to subdue uncomfortable feelings
- Panic and/or anxiety
- Scared and/or terrified
- Sad and/or depressed
- Angry and/or rage
- Nervous and/or lonely
- Engaging in self-injury to feel or not to feel
- To feel something when I'm numb
- To feel pain as a way to comfort myself
- To show people how much I hurt
- To show myself where others hurt me
- Suicidal ideation to escape to a better place
- Planning a rendezvous with God
- Not being a burden to anyone
- Giving up on myself
- Giving up on God