About This Blog

My blog shares my recovery journey from childhood abuse to living with mental illness. I've been involved in twelve step groups and therapy since 1982. I accepted Jesus as my Savior in 1988. To the best of my ability, I have followed where He wants me to go and what He wants me to do. Maybe you'll find the hope and strength you need through what I write. Maybe you want to stop hurting yourself. Maybe you have a friend who needs help and can benefit from my story. I was newly disabled when I asked God this question: "What do you want me to do with my life?" I closed my eyes and paused for a few moments to still my mind. This is what I sensed from Him: "Amy, I want you to write your story to bring hope and healing to those who are still suffering." And that's exactly what I am doing!

Thursday, April 24, 2014

Astonished by God


When I think about all God has done for me, I'm astonished.  I mean, let's be real.  I'm one in a few billion people who are currently inhabiting this earth.  Here are some things that make the word "billion" more relatable (Source - http://statistics.about.com/od/Applications/a/Millions-Billions-And-Trillions.htm):
  • One billion is a thousand millions.
  • One billion is a 1 with nine zeros after it, denoted by 1,000,000,000.
  • One billion seconds is about 31 and a half years.
  • One billion pennies stacked on top of each other would make a tower almost 870 miles high.
  • If you earn $45,000 a year, it would take 22,000 years to amass a fortune of one billion dollars.
  • One billion ants would weigh over 3 tons - a little less than the weight of an elephant.
  • One billion dollars divided equally among the U.S. population would mean that everyone in the United States would receive about $3.33.
Kind of puts it in perspective, right?  The only one I've already achieved is the one billion seconds.  I've passed up 31 and a half years.  I would love to see one billion ants.  What an ant hill that would be!  What would you like to see or experience?

So if I'm astonished about all God has done for me, what has He done?
  • He brought me through a horrific childhood with my sweet spirit still in tact
  • He brought safe women who could love me and not get caught up in my brokenness
  • He removed those women who were unhealthy, codependent or pushy
  • He brought kitties and dogs to love and be loved by
  • He removed my dad so the abuse would stop
  • He gave me safe environments to heal (still does)
  • He protects me from myself
  • He healed my family
  • He gave me a safe church
  • He gave me Jesus
The closer I draw to Him and
the closer I draw in trust to Him,
the better He can heal me and 
the healthier I will become.

Then I can be astonished at myself for all the hard work I've done to rid myself of past hurts and pain.