The closer it gets to Friday, the better I feel. The last 10 days have been rough. With the disappearance of my cat and my therapist on a mission trip, it felt like two big losses at one time.
I can feel my energy returning. I'm forcing myself to go outside, go to a movie or two and distract myself in other ways. I don't like being out of the house so much. I feel scared.
I don't know what to write about. Two friends have been having some struggles. I wish I knew them better so I could help. What would I do? I would listen and give them each a hug.
I think I should eat dinner. I've eaten too much popcorn this week. I can feel it. I didn't put any butter or salt on it. I think I was giving myself something for the sad feelings.
I'll be okay. I prayed for Faith every morning and evening. I did the best I could do. I know God was interceding on my behalf. He's so faithful when we are weak.
Yes, I shall order dinner. I'm down to apples and peanut butter which ain't gonna cut it tonight.
Good night, Lord.
"In this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. These have come so that your faith, of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire, may be proved genuine and may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed." (1 Pet 1:6-7 NIV)
About This Blog
My blog shares my recovery journey from childhood abuse to living with mental illness. I've been involved in twelve step groups and therapy since 1982. I accepted Jesus as my Savior in 1988. To the best of my ability, I have followed where He wants me to go and what He wants me to do. Maybe you'll find the hope and strength you need through what I write. Maybe you want to stop hurting yourself. Maybe you have a friend who needs help and can benefit from my story. I was newly disabled when I asked God this question: "What do you want me to do with my life?" I closed my eyes and paused for a few moments to still my mind. This is what I sensed from Him: "Amy, I want you to write your story to bring hope and healing to those who are still suffering." And that's exactly what I am doing!