About This Blog

My blog shares my recovery journey from childhood abuse to living with mental illness. I've been involved in twelve step groups and therapy since 1982. I accepted Jesus as my Savior in 1988. To the best of my ability, I have followed where He wants me to go and what He wants me to do. Maybe you'll find the hope and strength you need through what I write. Maybe you want to stop hurting yourself. Maybe you have a friend who needs help and can benefit from my story. I was newly disabled when I asked God this question: "What do you want me to do with my life?" I closed my eyes and paused for a few moments to still my mind. This is what I sensed from Him: "Amy, I want you to write your story to bring hope and healing to those who are still suffering." And that's exactly what I am doing!

Wednesday, January 15, 2014

Me, Faith and Jesus

Today my therapist took me on a visualization adventure.
She led me to safe and beautiful places.  
I remained in control as I opened myself up to a new experience.

Get in a comfortable seated position.
Deep breathing...Deep breathing...Relax
Begin

She asked me to pick a food that would nourish my body - Orange
"My body is the temple of the Holy Spirit."

"God dwells in my body."
Find a second food that will make the nourishment complete - Peanut Butter

Take myself to a safe place.
"My nook at the marina."
See the surroundings, Hear the sounds, Smell the smells, Feel the touches.

"Water, boulders, trees, prairie grass, turtles, fish jumping, blue herons, chipmunks."
"Water lapping, fish jumping, boat motors, grasses blowing, wind, people."
"River water, fish, pond, some prairie flowers, air."
"Picnic table wood, stone walking path, boulders, trees, prairie grasses."

Shift

Jesus
A ball of light in His hands
His hands are cupped around the light stretching toward me.
Will I accept His gift of light?  Yes
I cup my hands so the ball rolls easily from His hands into mine
But wait - the light wants to surge throughout my body.
I'm not ready for that yet so I stop it while still holding onto the ball.

I do not reject the gift of the light of Christ.
I am not yet ready to be illuminated for all to see.
This is connected to being thin.

Coming out of the visualization back into the session
Consciously aware of Faith in the room,
Me in the room and Jesus in the room (I smile).

Awake