Ever feel like most of the rest of you has experienced great accomplishments but this one part of you can't seem to make it over the mountain?
No matter what gear you use or how well you think you've prepared, that mountain remains the one obstacle you cannot get over. No matter what you do.
It's disheartening, really.
To have such an obstacle in front of you, knowing in every other area of your life you have overcome. You have overcome some ugly sins against you. Sins that should have taken your life had it not been for an all loving God. By His grace I was saved from unsuccessful suicide attempts, advancing self-injurious behavior, drinking escalating no matter where I was and mental illness.
I held down jobs because I am smart. Very smart. Low genius smart but nevertheless genius. No college education. Technology came easy to me. Still does.
Disabled because of my diagnosis. Can't think straight most of the time. Genius reduced to greatest secret ever hidden. Don't like being smart. Very smart.
Especially when facing failure and the mountain.
