When I think about God and how much I mean to Him, I think of a police pursuit.
It starts out with sirens blaring.
Screeching tires.
Fast speeds.
More cars added to the chase.
Racing behind me, up along side my car, motioning for me to pull over.
Constant attention.
Is that what the Bible says?
God pursues us recklessly?
No.
Not at all.
Revelation 3:20 says, “Look! I stand at the door and knock.
If you hear my voice and open the door, I will come in, and
we will share a meal together as friends."
He stands at the door and knocks.
He doesn't bulldoze the door down.
There are times it feels like my Christian walk is more like a run.
That's okay - for a period of time.
As long as rest comes in time before burnout happens.
God wants our relationship to downshift from mock 2 to drive.
He doesn't want me to coast without purpose or intention.
He wants me to rely on Him for direction and guidance.
He's the compass and I'm the one holding it, waiting for the path to reveal itself.
His love for me is so great I won't fully comprehend it until I'm in Heaven.
So I put away the police cars, the blaring sirens,
the screeching tires and the reckless speeds.
Instead, I grab hold of the One who knows a slow and
Steady pace builds endurance and overall strength.
This is especially important when managing Bipolar Depression,
Recovery from childhood abuse and coping with other mental illnesses.
The urge to pull back and isolate from a loving relational God
Happens very often. I give in to it more often than not.
My faith is still strong and I know God loves me during those hard times.
His relationship with me is not based on my ability to relate or talk to Him every waking hour.
It's based on who He is, who the Bible says He is and who worship songs praise Him for.
He's all encompassing.
He knows me by name.
He does not turn away from me when I turn away from Him.
He loves me in my illnesses because He knows what troubles me.
He has compassion, provides help through medication and other resources and
The Holy Spirit gives me wise counsel especially on days I feel most distant.
No need to worry.
God's shoulders are broad.
He has my back!
