Coping

Dear God,

I am so tired and feel very drained.  The colder weather is making it difficult to want to go outside.  I know it's only going to drop further as we enter into a Chicagoland winter.  Oh, the joy.

I don't know what to do to feel better.  I've been taking the medication as prescribed.  Trying to get enough sleep.  Eating right.  I haven't been able to see Faith since the first week of October.  I'm sure that's put a damper on my spirit.

I'm a little dizzy, too.  Standing up is a little difficult because my legs tense up.  I feel wobbly.  Definitely going to mention this to Dr. Didenko on Monday.

I just want to sleep and stay warm.  I'm wearing multiple layers.  I turned the heat up to 67.  I'm going to make some homemade chili.  That should help me feel like I'm doing something.

I dreamt a friend's house was on fire.  It burnt the front of the home, the basement, the outside wooden grill pit and the sitting area.  What was neat was my kitties were living in the basement and survived!  There were five of them huddled together.  The other six came out one by one.  I was so glad it was a dream.

Anyway, I just wanted to talk.  Thanks for always listening and providing for my every need.

Your faithful daughter,
Amy Kathleen

New Medication

Ugh.  I hate adjusting to new medications.  They can cause side effects that are long and painful. This one is causing a migraine 1-2 times a day.  I already suffer from migraines.  I guess it's good that I know how to treat them.

It's a medication that works well with my antidepressant.  It's also good for inducing rem sleep.  I sleep about 11-12 hours.  I'm also sleepy most of the day.  I hope this goes away in a couple of weeks.  I'm depressed and tired.

I doubt this writing will be beneficial to anyone but me.  Then again, that's probably how it's supposed to be.
Gonna rest today - again.  Want to cry but don't have the energy.

Found something cute to share: