I'm not sure if it's necessary for a medication adjustment. I don't want to be dependent on my psychiatrist to make that decision and yet I find the boundary lines smudged. Can I make that determination on my own?
I wake up in the morning still tired. I'm waking up in the middle of the night but I'm able to go back to sleep. My thoughts are foggy, not clear. I have an agenda for part of the day which I accomplish but the open time I struggle to keep busy. I mean I can keep busy but it's not productive.
Sometimes I have a mini meltdown and watch movies. Other times I take a nap and the chatter in my head continues. Then there are days like this when the day is long and feels never ending. Those are the hard days.
My chest gets tight from the stress of not knowing what to do. I did take myself to the library yesterday for some books from authors I enjoy. I thought that might help. I'm going to try reading after I finish writing this post. It's worth a try. I'm worth a try.
Bipolar Depression is a challenge to manage.
Staying on top of it is key.
If this doesn't get better in a week, I'll go see my psychiatrist.
Maybe it is the medication???
