I was alone, waiting for my meds at the nurses station. When the cry started, it caught me completely off guard. We share a double door with the Acute Care Unit which is where I was going to stay that night, my first night, but a bed opened up on my unit. I wondered how one could be so sad. This beautifully sad cry echoed down the hall I was in. I was captivated by it. I sat in a chair, lowered my head and prayed.
So sad....so beautiful...so lonely...so in need of her Heavenly Father's blanket of peace, security, safety and His arms holding her tight, rocking her gently, collecting each tear in a bottle and whispering, "There, there my daughter, let it all out and don't be afraid. Daddy's here and I'm never going to leave you."
Have you ever heard someone cry from a place in their soul that's so lonely it makes you sad? I hadn't until the next day. It was intensely emotional. I shed tears every time I heard her pain-filled yet beautiful cry. I closed my eyes and prayed again.
When you know the story of your Savior, Jesus Christ, you remember the anguish he carried on His shoulders and the cries of His heart as He wanted to complete the mission His Father asked Him to take on
It was early in my life as a new believer that my tears for His pain pierced my heart and stained my shirt. There's a song titled, "I Will Never Be the Same Again." That's right. For those of us who have personalized Jesus taking the wreckage of our lives and blowing it away with the gentlest of air from his lungs, we (I) take his gift to heart and try to live the life I'm meant to live according to his plan and purpose.
Lonely? I don't know if I'll ever hear her cry again in person.
God is good.
He shows up in acute
mental illness hospitals and
on the streets
where most human beings
do not want to stay alive.
Lonely's cry will forever echo in my body.
The sound of her lonely soul.
In my heart I hold her,
Praying over her,
Rocking her,
On God's behalf,
Be at peace, Lonely.
Your Father in Heaven is watching over you.
