About This Blog

My blog shares my recovery journey from childhood abuse to living with mental illness. I've been involved in twelve step groups and therapy since 1982. I accepted Jesus as my Savior in 1988. To the best of my ability, I have followed where He wants me to go and what He wants me to do. Maybe you'll find the hope and strength you need through what I write. Maybe you want to stop hurting yourself. Maybe you have a friend who needs help and can benefit from my story. I was newly disabled when I asked God this question: "What do you want me to do with my life?" I closed my eyes and paused for a few moments to still my mind. This is what I sensed from Him: "Amy, I want you to write your story to bring hope and healing to those who are still suffering." And that's exactly what I am doing!

Monday, June 17, 2013

Flooded By Thoughts

I'm swimming in thoughts:
  • Should I go to group tomorrow morning?
  • Should I make an appointment with my therapist this week?
  • Should I keep the phone appointment with the person who didn't return my emails for about eight months?
  • Should I ask another friend if I'm too much or if I did something?
  • Should I just stay at home and hide for awhile until I feel more brave?
  • Should I put in my air conditioners even though I can probably still wait another couple of weeks?
  • Should I buy more food or use up the last of it?
Then there are these feelings:
  • Fear, confusion, sadness, doubt
It's hard to figure out.

So, I sit and think.  It doesn't help much.  In fact, I believe I will let all of it go.  I can do what I need to do when I need to do it.  Relax.  Everything is going to be okay.