About This Blog

My blog shares my recovery journey from childhood abuse to living with mental illness. I've been involved in twelve step groups and therapy since 1982. I accepted Jesus as my Savior in 1988. To the best of my ability, I have followed where He wants me to go and what He wants me to do. Maybe you'll find the hope and strength you need through what I write. Maybe you want to stop hurting yourself. Maybe you have a friend who needs help and can benefit from my story. I was newly disabled when I asked God this question: "What do you want me to do with my life?" I closed my eyes and paused for a few moments to still my mind. This is what I sensed from Him: "Amy, I want you to write your story to bring hope and healing to those who are still suffering." And that's exactly what I am doing!

Saturday, October 26, 2013

Coping

Dear God,

I am so tired and feel very drained.  The colder weather is making it difficult to want to go outside.  I know it's only going to drop further as we enter into a Chicagoland winter.  Oh, the joy.

I don't know what to do to feel better.  I've been taking the medication as prescribed.  Trying to get enough sleep.  Eating right.  I haven't been able to see Faith since the first week of October.  I'm sure that's put a damper on my spirit.

I'm a little dizzy, too.  Standing up is a little difficult because my legs tense up.  I feel wobbly.  Definitely going to mention this to Dr. Didenko on Monday.

I just want to sleep and stay warm.  I'm wearing multiple layers.  I turned the heat up to 67.  I'm going to make some homemade chili.  That should help me feel like I'm doing something.

I dreamt a friend's house was on fire.  It burnt the front of the home, the basement, the outside wooden grill pit and the sitting area.  What was neat was my kitties were living in the basement and survived!  There were five of them huddled together.  The other six came out one by one.  I was so glad it was a dream.

Anyway, I just wanted to talk.  Thanks for always listening and providing for my every need.

Your faithful daughter,
Amy Kathleen