About This Blog

My blog shares my recovery journey from childhood abuse to living with mental illness. I've been involved in twelve step groups and therapy since 1982. I accepted Jesus as my Savior in 1988. To the best of my ability, I have followed where He wants me to go and what He wants me to do. Maybe you'll find the hope and strength you need through what I write. Maybe you want to stop hurting yourself. Maybe you have a friend who needs help and can benefit from my story. I was newly disabled when I asked God this question: "What do you want me to do with my life?" I closed my eyes and paused for a few moments to still my mind. This is what I sensed from Him: "Amy, I want you to write your story to bring hope and healing to those who are still suffering." And that's exactly what I am doing!

Sunday, April 05, 2015

Good Friday - Easter Sunday



Thank you, Jesus.
You entered this mess of a world.
You grew up and started your ministry to help messy people.

People who were lonely in heart or suffering from physical ailments.  They did not know you came to teach them about your Father and to be their friend.  They did not know to ask for healing and if it's according to your Father's will, it shall be done.  If not, they will not be alone through it.

People who, because of poor choices they had made and the consequences of those choices, did not know they could be forgiven for their sins and washed clean as snow.

People who, because of another's sin against them and possibly the destructive choices they had on another's innocent body and confusing their emotions, did not know you saw what was happening.  They didn't know because of man's free will you could not stop it from happening.

At the same time, they need to know every tear they cried is stored in a bottle in Heaven.

Psalm 56:8 You keep track of all my sorrows. You have collected all my tears in your bottle. You have recorded each one in your book.

Every tear.  And when they cried, you cried.

Thank you, Jesus.
You entered this mess of a world.
Your ministry reached thousands yet you would have come for only one.

Jesus in the flesh ended on Good Friday but God saw to it that His spirit did not leave quietly.  He let it be known that it was just the beginning.

Easter Sunday for many is a celebration of Jesus' tomb being empty, the resurrection of his body, the appearance of Him in His glorious body, the announcement of the Holy Spirit and the beginning of the church.  Ministry training wasn't finished.

It's no secret I gave my life to Jesus - all of it - 27 years ago.
NO regrets.
Just like the abuse to my body, mind and emotions ended many years ago,
God gave me a new beginning in His Son.
There's a tomb inside of me that carries dead memories.
I've been asking God to roll that stone away from the front of the tomb.
It's attached to comfort eating and many emotions.
So all of that lingers inside and I want it to be free.
Why?
So that I can live in a freedom I've longed for all my life and
For God to take what is damaged and replace it with new,
In His Goodness and Glory, for His Kingdom and Purpose.

Then I, like Jesus, can say...."It is finished."