About This Blog

My blog shares my recovery journey from childhood abuse to living with mental illness. I've been involved in twelve step groups and therapy since 1982. I accepted Jesus as my Savior in 1988. To the best of my ability, I have followed where He wants me to go and what He wants me to do. Maybe you'll find the hope and strength you need through what I write. Maybe you want to stop hurting yourself. Maybe you have a friend who needs help and can benefit from my story. I was newly disabled when I asked God this question: "What do you want me to do with my life?" I closed my eyes and paused for a few moments to still my mind. This is what I sensed from Him: "Amy, I want you to write your story to bring hope and healing to those who are still suffering." And that's exactly what I am doing!

Thursday, May 09, 2013

The Shaking

Dear God,

My upper body is shaking quite a bit.  I don't know what is causing it.  My head, shoulders, arms and hands jerk about.  I don't like it when this happens.

Sometimes I wish I had all the answers to these ailments.  I wish there was a way to control them and/or stop them.  It's a feeling of powerlessness and there are days when it scares me.  This is one of those days.

I'm getting ready to write more of my (your) book.  I've been thinking about writing about a topic this time.  Blurting out on paper what is hard to talk about.  No editing this time.  Just raw footage.

I'm so busy this week.  I've been trying to make sure I get enough rest and eat properly.  I haven't had much exercise.  With the thunderstorms coming into our area, I may not be able to walk for another day or so.  I'm ready to begin an exercise regimen.

Please bless and protect my friend Marie.  Please help Kim to finish her school year positively.  Please bless Anne with some quiet time.  Please grant Brian and Jo sustainable work.  Please protect and bless Ryan on his dog show trip.  Please bless and protect my family.  Please give me courage to overcome my fears.

Your daughter,
Amy Kathleen Endler