These last few writings have been sort of down. There's something wrong with my mind. Sometimes it feels stopped. Other times it feels focused. Then it switches to difficulty reading. Then I can do some housework. Jumping all over the place and it's only 3:00.
I'm so tired. I want to sleep. I have one outing tonight for my niece's 8th grade graduation dinner. I'm trying to stay positive though being with my family all at once produces anxiety. I'm used to it so I'm not too wigged out when it happens. I have to be mindful of not getting into a scuffle with my brothers-in-law. Usually if I'm quiet things go better. See? Another time when my silence is a good choice.
I keep thinking about the next part in my book. There's so much packed into three years. I'm writing one year at a time. But still - there's a lot to write. I'm trying to get my head around it, breaking it down. The topics are emotional. I'm starting to feel emotion now that I've really down graded the self-injury. I think I thought about SI once today. Anyway, I'm following a storyline I wrote years ago. Most of the details are already on the pages.
Then I thought about having my friends read what I've written so far. I think I'm okay with it. I need to sit with it for another day or so. They give me such great encouragement. I know they will understand the sensitivity and treat it gently.
Gonna try and get some rest now. I decided to bring my camera so we can give Hope a nice picture. She's so cute and sweet. It's her night, her party! Lord, bless her with great memories and laughter.
