Those are just some reasons someone can be more tired than usual. My reason right now is all four of them. I've been through this before but still, it's draining and still a little surprising.
Physically I'm tired because some of my medications are being changed. I've noticed how tired I become when the sun goes down. It's not a little tired - it's the kind of tired where I literally have to push myself to stay awake until 8:00 p.m.
Mentally I'm tired because of the writing I'm doing about the multiple deaths that took place six years ago. Deaths I never grieved. It takes a lot of thought to connect them to feelings. It also takes a lot of brain work to concentrate and write out how I think I'm feeling.
Emotionally I'm tired because all this work is very draining. I know it's good work to do and I know I will benefit once I'm done. I feel overwhelmed most of the time and emotionally exhausted the other time. I've been disconnected from my emotions for so long trying to identify them is sometimes very time consuming.
Spiritually I'm tired because I feel as though I'm in constant spiritual warfare. I know Satan does not want me to heal from all of this because he wants to keep me bound up in the wounds of the past. Every step forward I make is one step he goes after to try and erase. I'm trying my best to stick close to God so that I won't lose my footing and fall. God's the only one who can help me. He's promised never to leave me and never to forsake me.
I've accepted this phase in my development knowing it won't last forever. It might last for awhile and that's okay. As long as I'm walking with my Lord and Savior I'll be okay.
Tired? Yes.
Then Tired Some More? Most Definitely.
Ready to Give Up? No Way!!
