About This Blog

My blog shares my recovery journey from childhood abuse to living with mental illness. I've been involved in twelve step groups and therapy since 1982. I accepted Jesus as my Savior in 1988. To the best of my ability, I have followed where He wants me to go and what He wants me to do. Maybe you'll find the hope and strength you need through what I write. Maybe you want to stop hurting yourself. Maybe you have a friend who needs help and can benefit from my story. I was newly disabled when I asked God this question: "What do you want me to do with my life?" I closed my eyes and paused for a few moments to still my mind. This is what I sensed from Him: "Amy, I want you to write your story to bring hope and healing to those who are still suffering." And that's exactly what I am doing!

Monday, February 08, 2016

Wait Upon the Lord

Was awakened early, then a headache, now another migraine.  I think the migraine is rebounding which means it's stuck in a cycle of repetition.  The prescription drug I took for it last night worked but evidently did not prevent a recurrence.  I have a busy day ahead of me so trusting in the Lord is going to be where I gather the strength I'll need.

The dreams were very active.  A repeat of a dream I've had before with some added scenes.  Some if it was disturbing but for the most part, it was okay.

Working on my Bible study last night was filling to my soul.  I learned more about the Holy Spirit, God and myself.  My takeaways are below and the study is "Discerning the Voice of God, " by Priscilla Shirer.

*  The voice of the Holy Spirit is persistent.
*  I've loved the story of Samuel since I can remember (below).
*  Job 33:15-32 gives ways that God speaks to us.  
*  I need to trust Him more and prayed, "God, in the book You are writing, remove my fear to give you complete control.
*  The Holy Spirit's job is to instruct me in the way I should go and give me specific details concerning the issues in my life.
*  I want to trust God.  "God, I give you my fear:  Failure, Eating, Anger and Regression."
*  I desire to be a James 3:17 friend:  "The wisdom that comes from heaven is first of all pure.  It is also peace loving, gentle at all times, and willing to yield to others.  It is full of mercy and good deeds.  It shows no partiality and is always sincere."
*  "Lord, where I am a stumbling block to others, let me be transformed into a stepping stone."

1 Samuel 3:1-10New International Version (NIV)

The Lord Calls Samuel

The boy Samuel ministered before the Lord under Eli. In those days the word of the Lord was rare; there were not many visions.
One night Eli, whose eyes were becoming so weak that he could barely see,was lying down in his usual place. The lamp of God had not yet gone out, and Samuel was lying down in the house of the Lord, where the ark of God was.Then the Lord called Samuel.
Samuel answered, “Here I am. And he ran to Eli and said, “Here I am; you called me.”
But Eli said, “I did not call; go back and lie down.” So he went and lay down.
Again the Lord called, “Samuel!” And Samuel got up and went to Eli and said, “Here I am; you called me.”
“My son,” Eli said, “I did not call; go back and lie down.”
Now Samuel did not yet know the Lord: The word of the Lord had not yet been revealed to him.
A third time the Lord called, “Samuel!” And Samuel got up and went to Eli and said, “Here I am; you called me.”
Then Eli realized that the Lord was calling the boy. So Eli told Samuel, “Go and lie down, and if he calls you, say, ‘Speak, Lord, for your servant is listening.’” So Samuel went and lay down in his place.
10 The Lord came and stood there, calling as at the other times, “Samuel! Samuel!
Then Samuel said, “Speak, for your servant is listening.”