I seem to be struggling with some depression today. Is it the book? I wouldn't be surprised. Friends have warned me and my therapist confirmed it. I kept busy. My right hip was hurting pretty bad. Thank you for the handicapped placard. I needed it today.
I've been seeing a lot of Stephanie lately. I think I'm healing more from that relationship. It was good until it turned mean then I had to walk away. Seeing her now brings up memories of abandonment. If that was the ONLY symptom I had I'd still be diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder. The fear I live with is really something. One might say it's ginormous.
Bill is teaching this weekend. I'm still debating whether or not to go to church or watch on the Internet. I feel like I need to make some additions to the writing I've done so far. Then I need to make two copies. I want to keep writing. Am I pushing myself too hard, too fast? I need to listen for your guidance.
Tomorrow I'll spend time at the library. It's a safe place to write and not be disturbed. I need to work on my budget and pay some bills. Please guide me so I don't freak out.
Love your daughter,
Amy Kathleen
