I'm feeling discouraged about my lack of weight loss.
I was transferring information from my 2013 calendar to this year's calendar. Last year I kept track of my weight on a weekly basis. I'm doing the same this year.
This time last year I weighed eight pounds less. Not only have I gained eight pounds but somewhere along the line I made a decision not to lose any more weight. Or did I?
So many times I've met or seen people who have gained a lot of weight due to mental wellness medications. I struggle with medications working for short periods of time so changing them becomes a regular part of my treatment. That messes with my metabolism.
I'm also forty-six years old. My age plays a natural part in my metabolism beginning to slow down. If I'm not physically active, what I eat shows up on my body.
Having the right medications is essential - gaining some weight is a side effect.
I eat when I'm depressed and depression is my main mental illness.
My slower metabolism is predictable - changing how I eat and exercising can help lower my weight.
Here's the thing.
I'm tired.
I'm really tired.
I've been fat most of my life.
I'm incredibly unhappy with all this extra weight no matter where it came from.
I want to be thin, I really do.
I just wish it wasn't so hard.....
and slow.
