About This Blog

My blog shares my recovery journey from childhood abuse to living with mental illness. I've been involved in twelve step groups and therapy since 1982. I accepted Jesus as my Savior in 1988. To the best of my ability, I have followed where He wants me to go and what He wants me to do. Maybe you'll find the hope and strength you need through what I write. Maybe you want to stop hurting yourself. Maybe you have a friend who needs help and can benefit from my story. I was newly disabled when I asked God this question: "What do you want me to do with my life?" I closed my eyes and paused for a few moments to still my mind. This is what I sensed from Him: "Amy, I want you to write your story to bring hope and healing to those who are still suffering." And that's exactly what I am doing!

Monday, July 28, 2014

The Body and Grieving


Can the feelings in my body be traced to grief and stress?  I feel overly tired, nauseous, I'm walking slower and my concentration is way down.  It's hard to tell what is causing it.

The reason I bring it up is because  I could sleep the day away while listening to the nature sounds outside my window and not have a care in the world.

Is this healthy or am I trying to escape?

Given my food cravings are at an all time high, I suspect I'm trying to find a way to escape using a positive coping behavior.  Even my dreams are an extension of healthy ways of letting go.

To be able to rest when my inner world is a bit upside down is a real gift from God.  I appreciate the quiet He gives during the storms and the calm He gives when I am scared.  Jesus brings stability when my thoughts are scattered and the Holy Spirit counsels me when I need to hear the truth that will satisfy my soul.

Where would I be without my relationship with Jesus?

Lost and lonely