I opened my mailbox this morning and there was a bright yellow envelope from a friend. The card was cute - the check inside a wonderful surprise. It's amazing how God works when my insides hurt.
All I want to do is isolate at home, curl up on the couch and not engage with anyone in any way. The depression is in full swing. Staying inside seems like the right choice.
But it's not.
At least, not today.
Today is Sunday, the day I go to church. A warm place filled with beautiful faces where I feel safe and welcomed. God's presence is all around me. His word is taught the right way. I need all of it right now so I shall go.
I might have a chance to talk to the pastor about my car needs. We shall see.
In the meantime, God continues to bring donations and I continue to be very grateful.
I'm so tired and drained in every way imaginable.
God has a reason for everything that passes through His hands.
I don't have to understand it or like it.
My job is to trust it without understanding.
So that's what I'll do.
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him and he shall make your paths straight."
Prov 3:5-6
