About This Blog

My blog shares my recovery journey from childhood abuse to living with mental illness. I've been involved in twelve step groups and therapy since 1982. I accepted Jesus as my Savior in 1988. To the best of my ability, I have followed where He wants me to go and what He wants me to do. Maybe you'll find the hope and strength you need through what I write. Maybe you want to stop hurting yourself. Maybe you have a friend who needs help and can benefit from my story. I was newly disabled when I asked God this question: "What do you want me to do with my life?" I closed my eyes and paused for a few moments to still my mind. This is what I sensed from Him: "Amy, I want you to write your story to bring hope and healing to those who are still suffering." And that's exactly what I am doing!

Wednesday, April 02, 2014

Being Someone's Angel

It was a bright sunny day.  One that was due for a long time.  Winter's wind had been blustery.  The temperatures and wind chills were often well below zero.  For the warmth of the sunshine to grace our face in the wind, there could be no other gift greater than this.

I drove to a local thrift store, walked across the parking lot, thinking about other things I could use.  Two kitty carriers, perhaps a TV to replace the one that broke, a couple of VHS tapes I was searching for, you know, just thinking.  I walked through the door and something caught my eye.

It wasn't a TV or VHS tape or kitty carrier.  It wasn't any thing at all.  It was the most precious item to God and that preciousness was passed onto me.

She was sitting in a wheelchair.  She was wearing a black winter coat.  She had puffy white hair and was just sitting there.  I smiled and said hello.  She looked up, smiled and said hello.  I stopped walking and knew God wanted me to remind her that He hadn't forgotten about her.

I stood for a little while, not wanting to make her uncomfortable.
Her family was shopping and she was waiting for them.
I asked her if she needed clothing and she laughed.  I sat down.
"Oh, I have too much.  I could wear them three fold!"
"I know what you mean," I said, "I'm giving mine away."
I continued, "Do you read books?"
"No, not anymore," she said, "My eyes don't see too well anymore.
I like watching TV, the news and some shows."
I said,"I don't have TV."
Her eyes opened wide.
"I usually read the newspaper or check on the Internet."
I got the nudge to leave.
"Well it was nice talking with you."
As I stood, I placed my hand on her arm.
She looked at her arm as if it had not been touched gently in awhile.
We said our good-byes and that was it.

God did not prompt me to say anything about Him.
I believe that sometimes we are God's angels.
And sometimes, angels are silent.